Chapter 479 - 480: The Deepest Love, The Best You 3
"I... I can’t believe this; it feels like I’m dreaming. I’ve become Nangong Yaoling’s wife, I’m no longer Qiqi, and I’ve taken on someone else’s appearance.
But only I know... I’m still Qiqi, the Qiqi who deeply loves Nan Mo.
I had no choice but to continue living with another identity.
Until I met you again.
You changed from Nan Mo to Liang Shaochen... You didn’t recognize me. The first time we met, you called me sister-in-law.
At that moment, I felt it was so absurd. I never thought that when we met again, it would be under such circumstances.
Yet, it happened.
At the hotel, I was set up by Liang Yuzhu, Nangong Yaoling misunderstood me, yet you told me not to blame Yuzhu. I didn’t expect you to believe in me.
I was drunk in the elevator and held you; I so wanted to call you Nan Mo...
But, but... I’m already Nangong Yaoling’s wife.
I didn’t have the courage to acknowledge you, nor the courage to reveal my background.
Later, I saw you with Nangong Zhongli in the mall. Watching your intimate interaction, my heart felt like it was being stabbed with needles.
At that moment, I finally realized that you were no longer the Nan Mo who belonged only to me.
Perhaps, from the moment you left the welfare home, I no longer held any claim over you.
Yet, I refused to accept this reality.
That time, when you heard about the plane going missing and knew I was on board, you lost control of your emotions. Zhong Li lost contact with you and anxiously tried to find me.
Suddenly, I remembered one time during our childhood when we played hide-and-seek; I hid in the church, and you couldn’t find me the whole day.
When you finally found me, you harshly scolded me with red eyes, telling me never to hide somewhere you couldn’t find again.
So, I went to the church with a mindset of trying my luck and indeed found you there...
But we ran into thugs in the church, and I took a knife for you. Our relationship changed subtly. You told me about you and Qiqi, and there was a special trust between us.
At that moment, I felt truly happy and warm.
I always hoped that one day, I could escape from Nangong Yaoling and regain my freedom to be with you.
But... I didn’t expect Qiqi to appear.
When you told me in high spirits that you found Qiqi, I didn’t know what to feel. I tried to tell you not to get too excited too soon, because I knew that I was the real Qiqi. How could there be two identical people in this world?
I tried to make you doubt, tried to tell you that Qiqi might be fake.
But every time I brought it up, you got furious, thinking I had ulterior motives.
Yes... you were not wrong. I indeed had an ulterior motive; I couldn’t forget you. I couldn’t pretend that nothing had happened.
That time on the island, Nangong Yaoling forced me to kill you.
My heart was filled with despair. I knew there was no escape this time, but I couldn’t implicate innocent people, and I definitely couldn’t let countless people be buried because of our relationship.
I made a selfish and bold decision: I shot you.
At that moment, I thought, I would kill you, then avenge you, and finally commit suicide.
Maybe this would be the best ending.
But..." At this point, Xia Xiaonuan was already choked up beyond words.