Chapter 823: Not What She Wants
Although Xia Ji’s body felt somewhat weak, she was the kind of person who would never allow herself to fall.
The resentment in her gaze had yet to dissipate as she stood by the lakeside, dressed in red that accentuated her pale skin, so pale it was almost glaring. Despite the darkening sky, amidst the faint light source, her breathtaking beauty still astounded anyone who looked.
She was very tall, and standing there at that moment, she exuded a sense of solitary detachment from the world.
The corners of her lips curled into a mocking smile.
How could she not have thought it?
From the very beginning, she had considered it all.
She knew more than anyone else that her father never desired high status or wealth. He was proud of her, yet worried for her. What he hoped for was that she could have a happy, fulfilling life. In his hopes, she should find a reliable man to marry, have adorable children, and become a contented woman.
Not to become a Holy Daughter, revered by the clan, burdened with expectations.
He did not want her to live such a life.
But because she wanted it, she needed those things to prove herself, to realize her worth. She needed power to become stronger, to ensure no one would dare to bully them.
She wanted a high status.
And because he cared so deeply for her, even though he was unwilling, he never mentioned it in front of her. He even went to guard the tomb alone to fulfill her wishes, to prevent her from being ridiculed or disrupted.
He knew that even in such solitude, he was happy, because in his eyes, as long as she was happy, he was happy.
For her, he was willing to die, willing to do anything.
She had a father who was the best in the world to her. Even though he had nothing, he gave her all he could.
So then? She understood too well, and that’s why she couldn’t accept it or face it.
She was unwilling to accept that he died for her in the end. She could even imagine that at the moment of his death, he felt happiness and reassurance, believing she was saved and could live the peaceful, happy life he had envisioned. Her husband was the best man in the entire Xia Clan. He was gentle, kind, responsible, and he could take good care of her. Even if he hadn’t fallen for her, he would willingly give for her, something many envied but couldn’t attain!
See, how wonderful this all was!
So she could completely imagine how gratified and fulfilled her father was when he left.
But all of this was not what she wanted!
She would rather have none of it, she didn’t love Xia Qingcheng, no matter if he was the best man in the Xia Clan. She didn’t necessarily have to love him! She loved cultivation, loved becoming stronger, and she didn’t care about life or death, not at all.
So why did he make such presumptuous decisions, trading his life for everything she never wanted? How could she willingly enjoy all of this?
Whenever she saw Xia Qingcheng, she would recall how the person she cared for the most died, and how her lifelong dreams shattered!
Not for a single moment could she endure such a life!