Chapter 736: Only Bewildered Back Then
Once, when love was at its peak, she would joyfully call him A que.
Such an enchanting name, since parting with her, no one has ever called him that again.
Countless times in the dead of night, he could suddenly hear her clear and cheerful voice.
It’s just a pity that one wrong step back then led to a lifetime of mistakes, from then on, between them, they became the most familiar strangers.
No matter how much he held back, at this moment, hearing this long-lost call, his tears still fell abruptly, filled with endless melancholy and bitterness.
He couldn’t utter a single word.
In this lifetime, he has let her down.
Su Yaogeng looked at Han Si Que: "For more than twenty years, I have been gambling this breath with you, messing up the lives of the three of us, but now, I have truly let go. This time leaving the Capital City, in this lifetime, I should never return again; our fate in this life, whether loved or hated, has completely dissipated into smoke and clouds!"
Han Si Que finally choked up, his voice hoarse and somewhat painful: "Zheng’er..."
Su Yaogeng shook her head: "It’s been decades, you said in a person’s life, there are only so many decades, because of a misplaced love, neither of us has truly been happy, why bother? Do we really have to wait until we’re dead to regret not living well in this life?"
"A que," she looked up at him: "It should end, really, it should all end. No matter how late, we must end those past mistakes and start anew."
"Zheng’er," he gazed at her intently: "I, truly love you."
It is truly a deep love, even if it was much later when he realized the depth of this love and the regret it caused in his life, he still truly, deeply loved her.
Su Yaogeng nodded: "I know, but it’s all past now. You know very well that from the moment you made that decision, your life no longer allowed you to recklessly make other choices. Heaven is always fair, what you gain, you may lose something, even if sometimes, what you lose might be more than what you gain. But what’s past, is finally past, it won’t come back, nor will it restart."
Han Si Que closed his eyes, the pain in his heart was so intense that he could hardly breathe.
The woman he loved all his life, they are about to part ways, never to meet again in this lifetime.
To Han Si Que, Su Yaogeng now truly feels neither love nor hate; after all these years, besides the betrayal back then, he has done nothing against her. Instead, it was she who, in a moment of anger, made too many mistakes and disrupted many people’s lives.
"The vast mountains and rivers are empty, missing the distant ones, better to cherish the person in front of you." Su Yaogeng sighed: "Mrs. Qin is a rare woman, truly sincere to you, it hasn’t been easy for her all these years, and we’ve already lived through more than half of our lives. For her years of dedication, you should treat her well. She hasn’t done anything wrong, you’ve already hurt her heart, you shouldn’t continue to hurt it. Only by letting go can we discover the meaning of life."
"What I want to say, have to say, I’ve said it all. Let’s... part ways here." Su Yaogeng glanced at Han Si Que, then lowered her gaze.
The memory of this love can only await its reminiscing, only at the time it was already in vain.