Chapter 624: Let’s Not Meet Again in the Next Life
She collaborated with the Empress and finally left the Qin Palace on the day Qin Feng passed away.
In the forest at the suburb of the capital, having endured pain for two hours, she finally gave birth to the tiny child, whom she only glanced at once.
Thin and small, with a palm-sized birthmark on the left cheek.
What a ridiculous irony, that birthmark on the child’s face seemed like a slap on her own face.
Is this the ending she wanted for her entire life?
She knew Brother Fengxi would definitely come for her and take her away, but if, if three years ago, she knew it would lead to this result, why did she stubbornly stay in the Qin Palace?
In the end, in that last year, consumed by anger and losing herself, she almost forgot the taste of love she had with Brother Jiu.
She destroyed Qin Feng in revenge, and she also destroyed herself.
She couldn’t bring herself to pity that child.
She didn’t even want to live, so the child’s life or death meant nothing to her.
Did she look at her to remind herself of the humiliation she suffered in the Qin Palace?
Enough, really enough, she’s had enough.
So she didn’t even want to look at her any longer.
Threw it away cleanly, died cleanly.
And forgot cleanly.
Ironically, Brother Fengxi took her back, and his first question was actually about that child.
Oh, she died.
When she answered him, her heart was utterly calm.
She didn’t even regret it in the slightest.
Because she had already lost the will to live.
When Brother Fengxi heard her words, he gazed at her with a look she had never seen before, then without saying a word, he went back to find that child.
Did he also think she was cruel?
But who can dissolve and erase the cruelty fate has imposed on her?
She’s tired, really tired.
She left him a letter, entrusting him to take care of Qing Jue and Ying Niang, then chose to commit suicide.
At the moment her consciousness was completely scattered, she felt she was finally liberated.
Yet she didn’t die; when she opened her eyes again, she saw Brother Fengxi’s pale, bloodless face.
He smiled and said to her,
Tongtong, you must try your best to live, Qing Jue needs you to take care of her.
Tongtong, you not loving me is not your fault. I never wanted you to love me, I just wished for you to be a little happier.
Tongtong, I am exchanging my life for your life, so what I owe you can finally be repaid.
Tongtong, if there is a next life, let us not meet again.
After he finished saying these words, he never spoke another word to her. He instructed someone to bring Yun Zidu, entrusted him with the aftermath, asked him to take care of Xichen, and to look after Beihan Palace.
Then just like that, without any reluctance, he died before her.
Only at that moment did she realize the position this man, who quietly protected her from behind, held in her heart.
She always thought she loved Brother Jiu, with whom she shared passion and intensity, until the moment of Fengxi’s death she finally understood—he whom she truly loved was the person she hurt most deeply. Because he loved her, she had always been fearless, thinking she’d never, ever lose him, even if she lost everything else.
But she lost him, his life, including his love for her.
He said, if there is a next life, let us not meet again.