Chapter 703 - 214: I Have My Own Home_2
Lu Xiuting would definitely think this is considered "very good", right?
But Lu Sisi herself never valued these things.
She valued some other things.
For example, last time, after many days of Chen Yan being gone, he came back home and brought a "Spirit Communication Pill".
And also, the increasingly intense smell of blood and evil qi on him.
Lu Sisi knew that Chen Yan must have gone through a lot of hardship and suffering to get that Spirit Communication Pill for her!
Even after swallowing the Spirit Communication Pill, she still couldn’t cultivate, and Lu Sisi’s own disappointment and distress weren’t really about the "cultivation" matter.
She didn’t care if she could become a cultivator, as long as she could live a long life and spend more time with Chen Yan—that condition was already satisfied without cultivation now.
Lu Sisi herself truly didn’t care about whether she could become a cultivator.
The fundamental reason she felt distressed and disappointed was because of Chen Yan!
Chen Yan paid such a high price for her to cultivate, enduring so much hardship and suffering, yet she wasted his efforts and sacrifices!
Lu Sisi felt extremely guilty in her heart.
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The harmonious atmosphere between mother and daughter suddenly disappeared, from the road to the supermarket, neither of them spoke again.
Lu Xiuting didn’t feel she said anything wrong, she just noticed Lu Sisi’s unhappiness, so she cautiously avoided this mood, but whatever other topic she brought up, Lu Sisi seemed disinterested in it.
The shopping process in the supermarket was calm and indifferent.
There was no imagined family joy of mother and daughter shopping together, no scene of one pushing the cart while the other joyfully takes things off the shelf, discussing what to buy to cook at home—all of this was absent.
After silently buying some food and supplies for home, Lu Sisi calmly pushed the cart to pay, while Lu Xiuting seemed somewhat at a loss, standing silently to the side.
Holding large bags when they got back in the car, Lu Xiuting took a deep breath and said in a complex tone, "I really am doing this for your own good, I..."
"Mom." Lu Sisi suddenly spoke calmly: "Perhaps, I’m just not used to it."
"What do you mean?"
"Just not used to it..." Lu Sisi’s fingers, holding the steering wheel, were somewhat pale: "Maybe I’m used to you not caring about me, used to your estrangement and indifference, so... now that you appear to care about me, to be close to me, it makes me... well, it’s not just me, but both of us, it seems that neither of us is used to this mode of interaction."
Lu Xiuting’s face changed!
She said in a trembling voice: "I, I know, you must in your heart blame me, I just want..."
Lu Sisi forced a smile, interrupting Lu Xiuting again, with a bitter smile: "Mom, did you recently encounter some crisis?"
Lu Xiuting: "..."
"Father is becoming increasingly detached from this home, especially in recent years, his affection for you is fading more and more, and he stays out more often.
And everything you have is based on Father. Father’s detachment makes you very uneasy, right?
You’re very worried that if Father someday gets tired of you and wants to leave, you will get nothing.
The property was under Father’s name a long time ago, Father is from a family in Port City, you definitely signed a prenuptial agreement with him, right? Even though you didn’t want to, back then you didn’t have the qualification to negotiate, so you must have signed it.
Now you are increasingly worried that Father will become detached, you’re worried that if he leaves you, you’ll have nothing.
If that happens... Brother’s surname is Yang, the Yang Family won’t let you have him. And as for property, Father has always been shrewd about money, so you probably won’t get anything either.
You wanted a third child to solidify your position.
But that attempt failed, you must be very sad and upset, but... also surely very disappointed, right?
You feel like those things you valued are suddenly out of grasp, it makes you very panicked.
You... have a very serious sense of crisis."
At this point, Lu Sisi looked up at her mother: "Am I right? Mom?"
Before Lu Xiuting could answer, Lu Sisi seemed to smile: "So, when you felt uneasily helpless, you suddenly remembered me, your daughter."
Lu Xiuting let out a shriek: "No!!"
Lu Sisi was not frightened by Lu Xiuting’s scream, she just looked at her mother with a calm yet sad gaze.
"Mom, even though I’m young, and my temperament is soft, but... I’m not stupid."
Lu Sisi’s eyes were red too, and she said softly: "For over a decade, you didn’t love me. Then, suddenly overnight, after not loving or caring for me for more than ten years, you suddenly loved and cared for me...
I actually understand, you came to see me not because you suddenly regretted, and suddenly overnight liked me, your daughter whom you had neglected for over a decade—how could there be such a big change overnight.
You just suddenly need me.
You encountered a crisis, your husband, your son, you found they aren’t your dependence.
You feel lonely, uneasy, and scared in your heart, wanting to find a reliance—even if it’s just a psychological reliance.
So, you suddenly remembered me, remembered your daughter who you had neglected for many years.
You even forgot that just last time we met, you coldly wanted to drive me away from Jinling Prefecture, to send me far away overseas.