Bom finally separated herself after the end of the movie.
Then, she started nibbling on the chocolate. With her arms wrapped around her knees, she ate one block of chocolate at a time.
Her vacant eyes were out of focus and she looked slightly mental at a glance. Her heart was still beating fast and her hands that were carrying the chocolate to her mouth were also trembling. She was so out of it that she didn’t even notice a piece of melted chocolate dropping onto her gown.
He decided to not worry about it. A romantic feeling was a normal everyday emotion and was only a fragment of the countless emotions that budded while spending time with the hatchlings. It was nothing special or incredible, and was just slightly more stimulating than others.
Despite his emotions that were running amok, he did not forget his position nor his decision on how he should treat Bom. He had no plans of desiring anything more than this.
However, seeing her trembling hands that constantly dropped half-melted chocolate, he decided to clean them at least. It was by habit, like how he would wipe the biscuit crumbs off of Gyeoul’s face.
With that in mind, he touched her gown and that was when her vacant eyes regained its light. She slowly turned towards him with her eyes widened into circles.
It made him wonder what was so surprising about his actions. He reached his hand out a little further and she closed her eyes in response. She then turned tense and her shoulders rose up in nervousness as if there was a gun placed against her head.
What’s wrong with her? Upon some thought, he realised that she might have misunderstood his intention and retrieved his hand. She slowly opened her eyes with a squint and looked at him before heaving out a quivering sigh.
“…I know everything and yet I’m still like this.”
What?
“…”
Bom placed one of the pillows in between her legs and closed them. Silence befell the room for a little. He wanted to ventilate his emotions in the meantime but that was when Bom carefully opened her mouth.
“Oppa. I know but I’m still worried so please let me say it…”
“Okay.”
“……You can’t.”
“I can’t what.”
“?”
He pretended like he didn’t know what she was talking about as doubt appeared on her face.
“Anyway, you can’t.”
“I can’t do what?”
“If you do, my life will be over…”
“Like I said, what are you talking about.”
“…”
She looked very discontent. Suddenly, she threw her hand into the dimensional storage placed around her waist and took something out.
It was a pair of scissors. With that in hand, she glared at him.
“…”
What.
“I know you fully understand what I’m talking about.”
“I have no idea what you are on about.”
“What do you mean. Of course there is no way you don’t have those, and, that kind of thoughts at all in your mind, right?”
“Are you talking about chocolate?”
He replied while tasting the remaining sweetness on his tongue. He wasn’t expecting her to suddenly start such an open conversation with that as the topic but it was slightly dumbfounding that she had even prepared some scissors for it. On the other hand, he again felt another sense of deja vu because that just happened to be scissors.
( ́•ω•)✂
Why was it scissors out of all things?
“Come on.”
Bom continued with a whine.
“Why are you pretending like you don’t know what I’m talking about?”
“I know chocolate.”
“Are you really going to continue doing that? I’m talking about something really serious here.”
“Serious? Do dragons get diabetes as well?”
“Ahh.”
Bom rolled her tiny hand into a fist and hit her chest a few times out of frustration. The slight moment of amusement helped him refresh his mood more.
“You know, that thing.
“That…
“The thing that…”
With one beat in between, she continued saying ‘that’ but he was still silent so she heaved a sigh and dropped the scissors. She blankly murmured, “What am I even talking about…” and she seemed to be feeling slightly tired.
But she suddenly remembered something as tension disappeared from her face. She abruptly came closer towards him.
“Back then,”
“Yeah.”
“When we first kissed.”
She was talking about the thing that happened at the lounge on the way back from the ruined ceremony.
Bom whispered with a suggestive voice, ‘Why did you take my clothes off?’
Words disappeared from his mouth. He still had an indifferent look on his face but her eyes curved as if she had finally caught onto an opportunity.
In fact, Yu Jitae back then had no intention of doing anything. Him taking her clothes off was a process to confirm whether the emotions he had been feeling back then was that of a romantic one or not.
Of course, she probably wouldn’t believe him even if he were to say that.
“What were you trying to do?”
So he didn’t know what to say in return when Bom drew closer in and whispered after resting her chin on his shoulder.
‘What were you going to do after stripping me…?’
The whispering made it even harder to reply. It was clear that she was teasing him but that was fine. She would probably separate with a smile if he were to change the topic a little.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about, but you should get some sleep. I’m sure you’re tired.”
But in response, Bom gave an indifferent pout. The words that soon left her mouth included a word which had been completely out of his expectation.
“Are you castrated?”
He frowned. His expression was literally that of a question mark and Bom giggled after finally catching him off guard.
“You understood what I was saying right…?”
“…”
“Why do you pretend like you don’t know…”
The cover was blown.
Yu Jitae realised that acting clueless would no longer serve any purpose but at the same time, the doubt he had about Bom regarding that topic also strongly rose back up. He found the need to research into the somewhat strange action system of Bom.
Bom had romantic feelings for him.
Bom had no qualms with distance to the point that she would unhesitatingly be the one to initiate a kiss.
However, Bom felt very burdened about a sexual relationship.
Until now, he thought she was just afraid of the inexperienced field. But from what she was now saying, it seemed that going further would result in a big problem.
“So, what is this serious thing that you were talking about.”
“Sorry?”
“You said the thing is not allowed. Why is that.”
That was when Bom once again regained a nervous look on her face. However, she asked him something else instead of answering his question.
“Why are you trying to avoid it?”
“Well, that’s because you’re feeling troubled by it.”
He expressed his thoughts but it was then. With a more profound gaze, Bom looked deeply into his eyes. The atmosphere around her eyes changed as her breath turned quiet.
“……It’s more like you can’t, right?”
“What?”
Thinking it was a continuation of that ‘castrated’ stuff, he was wondering how to reply.
“I know there is something you are hiding from us oppa.”
But that was when Bom suddenly talked about something he hadn’t even expected.
He gave a frown.
It was difficult to guess what she meant by ‘hiding’.
“I’m not hiding anything.”
“You can deceive everyone else but not me.”
“What do you mean.”
“You see, I can look at one thing and understand a lot more than you might expect.”
“Bom. You know how much time we’ve spent together, and we’re always next to each other. What is there for me to deceive you guys on.”
The provocative atmosphere was long gone and the feeling given off by the surrounding air was that of a relatively sharp blade. With a sunken look on her face, Bom gazed at his hands before grasping it.
“I’ve been finding it strange for a long time now.”
“Finding what strange.”
“Actually, you weren’t like that at the start. Oppa, you would always look at us as if we were things but that was completely normal. You were a dangerous person and for other people, you didn’t even see them as things.”
It was an uncomfortable topic to talk about. He tried to pull his hand out but Bom resisted by clenching tightly with both of her hands.
“Why are you like that?”
“I don’t know what you mean. Stop saying something weird and let go.”
“You have no idea, do you? The face you sometimes make after you started treating us like people and not things?” Bom bursted out with questions.
‘What is this about…’ Saying that, he nonchalantly pulled his hand out. However, that wasn’t the end – Bom suddenly stood up and fell on him. She opened her legs wide, sat on top of his stomach and pressured him from above. The weight, however, was meagre and it was similar to a cat staying on top of him but pushing her down would make it seem even weirder so he calmly stayed there gazing up at her.
As if she couldn’t understand it, Bom looked at him with a slight frown and asked.
“Why do you look so sorry when you are looking at us…?”
Carried by an anchor, his emotions dropped. Those words struck at his eardrums and pierced through his brain.
‘Why do you look so sorry?’
He couldn’t even think of a response.
Her words according to the [Eyes of Equilibrium] were true.
“That’s nothing but an excuse right. Me feeling burdened, and that being the reason you don’t crave for me. To be frank, that’s just an excuse, isn’t it?”
The words he had been telling himself in order to deceive even himself started being crushed by Bom. It had been completely outside his line of thought.
He had only been observing others’ expressions and had never taken his own expression into consideration.
Since when?
Since when did he start facing the kids with such an expression?
“I don’t know what you mean.”
The only excuse he could give was a short one. His crude words were resolute but Bom did not buy it.
“Are you sure you don’t?”
“Yes.”
“Will you continue denying it like that?”
“Like I said, I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“…Then, do you want me to prove it?”
“Prove what. I’ve never done such a… Oi.”
Yu Jitae hurriedly tried to stop her.
Bom placed her hands on the collars of her gown with her two cheeks flushed deeply in red. Despite also feeling troubled by the embarrassment, she moved her hands in order to find out the truth.
“Yu Bom. Stop.”
She refused to stop. Her gown dropped behind her and revealed her body, which was not wearing any underwear. From mid-way she used her arms to support the gown to stop it from falling further down, but the top half of her body and the contours of her body connecting down from her collarbone was already on display. In that state, Bom pushed her body forward a little.
“Here, oppa. This is all yours…”
He turned stiff.
Because she’s young. Because she’s inexperienced. Because she is scared of sexual relationships and because she feels burdened by it. Since that had been the thought in his mind, he wasn’t expecting her to do this at all.
In fact, she did seem troubled by it. Despite acting all brave, Bom could not even look straight into his eyes after actually dropping her clothes. But nonetheless, she did not seem to be planning on stopping with her ‘proving’ process.
As if telling him to touch her, she used one of her hands to lift his hand by the wrist but he just could not cross the line any further.
Bom was right.
He had been trying to deny his emotions under the pretext that ‘Bom was feeling burdened by it’.
Yu Jitae knew it better than anyone himself.
He was only in this state because the thing called emotion was outside one’s control, and he simply did not have the qualification to hold romantic feelings for her.
Because of that, he stopped his hands and retaliated no matter how much Bom tried to pull his hand up. “See,” Bom opened her mouth with a slightly gloomy look on her face.
“…You can’t.”
He could not continue this conversation any further. He did not know how to reply when being interrogated in this kind of relationship so he resorted to blocking her mouth. That was still within the boundary that he had drawn.
“So what is it? Why do you look so sorry when you’re–”
Yu Jitae pulled her by her wrists.
“Uhb… Nnn—…”
Bom could not add any more words. Her mouth was blocked.
After the deep kiss, he calmly raised the sides of her clothes and dressed her back up. Bom was covering her face with both of her hands with a heated breath.
She was lost. This was not something that should be glossed over. It wasn’t. Even though she knew it wasn’t, Bom just could not make herself ask any more questions.
There was no longer any leftover chocolate.
*
It was morning.
The two of them did not say anything to each other even as they checked out of the hotel. Bom did not say anything so Yu Jitae likewise stayed silent.
This was a sort of escape but there were some things in this world that had to be avoided, at least in his opinion.
Only after grabbing his hand to [Teleport (S)] back home did Bom open her mouth.
Anything would be fine.
He had already thought of multiple possible excuses but Bom once again spoke of something that was outside his expectation.
“Actually, I didn’t talk about it with the other kids.”
With a refreshing look on her face, she gave a bright smile.
He felt something dark crawling up inside his heart. It soon became a drop of poison that seeped into his veins.
“You’ve always given us good things, so we can trust you.”
If he said something here, would anything have been different?
“So after we go back, stop feeling so sorry to us. Okay?”
However, he did not say anything. He could only habitually hug Bom, who had naturally walked into his arms.
The Regressor had to protect the daily lives.
“…We will always believe you.”
Even if it was full of deceit.
***
[2431… Hehe, the diary is not over yet]
[Yu Bom hasn’t become whale food yet haha;]
[…hehehehehehe;;]
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[2432. That was the sweetest vacation of my life…♥]
She drew another heart at the front page before closing it.
[Ahjussi Observation Diary ♥♥♥♥]
But after pondering about the thing she saw from the side of her vision, she noticed that there was something written on the next page.
Tilting her head, Bom turned to the next page. The moment she saw the words written in a messy handwriting, her face turned red like a radish.
[Thanks for the interesting read lol]
[SEX]
After a few seconds, a loud roar going “Yu Yeoooruuuummm—!!” echoed all across Unit 301.